THE LIVING CODES: EMBODIED JOURNAL
Dreams. Descent. Rebirth. Stillness. Truth.
This is where I lay the breadcrumbs of my becoming
not to be followed, but to awaken your own.
Witnessing Without Running
Today I realized: Mother is here to feel. Mother is in the feeling. She doesn’t work when we beg her. She works when we trust her, surrender to her, and let ourselves feel. She asks us to be willing to feel it all, because when we can feel it and hold it , she can move through us. So in that moment I chose to stay. I decided to work on my mom. In the past I hadn’t really worked on her because I didn’t feel like I could be fully present to hold the energy for her without collapsing into.
When the Womb Wants to Rest Back into the Body
Most people think bloating is just about food or digestion.
But sometimes, it’s energetic. This forward posture isn’t just physical. It’s energetic architecture an echo of a time when I felt I had to anticipate life, protect others, or move toward everything before it got to me.
Dream: The Third Eye Hole & the House of Many Rooms
A strange dream last night revealed a driver with a hollowed-out third eye, a house that wasn’t safe, and guidance I couldn’t fully trust. It left me feeling scrambled and hyper-aware. This dream wasn’t just strange it was a mirror. A mirror for what happens when we return home but don’t yet feel safe in our own field. When others can’t tap in for us, and discernment becomes non-negotiable.
Dream-The Trial of Inner Truth
woke up from a dream that felt chaotic, disorienting, and random until I started tracking the deeper layers. In the dream, I was in a leadership position within a group. Something happened with a woman details blurred but it escalated to the point where she was beaten so badly she died
The Night We Didn’t Make Love and Why It Brought Us Closer
What started as a quiet tension around intimacy became a threshold moment for deeper connection, ancestral healing, and shared truth. This journal explores what happens when we name what’s unspoken and how love deepens on the other side.
Staying Open: Sacred Union, Street Mirroring, and the Girl from Hell
After a sacred merging with my partner, I stayed open for the first time, fully. What followed was a day of mirrors: strangers affirming my essence, and a homeless woman named “the girl from hell” reflecting the parts of the feminine I had yet to fully love. This entry is about staying open: in intimacy, in discomfort, and in reflection. A journey back to wholeness, one moment at a time.
🐍 When the Golden Serpent Returned: A Joint Initiation Through the Body
In this joint session with Lia, the golden serpent returned, not as a metaphor, but as a living current moving through our bodies. What unfolded was a shared remembrance, a past-life unveiling, and a powerful reactivation of my original power. This wasn’t about facilitating. It was about surrendering to the truth that moves through the body when we stop fearing our own frequency.
Galactic Heart Surgery
They didn’t force my heart open. They came to assist.
One part is already flowing, the other still wrapped in chains.She said my heart looked like an apple with a lock in the middle. One half unchained, one half still bound. And she said something that pierced me: “They didn’t force the lock open. They only unlocked what you were ready for.”
Dream-The Key and the Doorway
Last night I dreamed of keys, false cops, and distorted timelines—and when I woke up, every alarm on my phone was deleted. It felt like something had sealed itself shut. In the dream, I used an antique key to lock a door from the outside. Diego was still inside. Whatever it meant, I knew: I had just crossed a threshold. Closed a loop. Cleared a paradigm. My higher self said: “You hold the key.” And I felt it. Something old ended. A portal opened. The shift is already underway.
Holding the Activation Without Chasing the High
What if real power doesn’t come with fireworks?
After a dragon activation that shifted everything, I didn’t feel euphoric I felt grounded. Present. Clear. This journal tracks the moment I realized: I no longer need to chase the high. The codes are in the stillness, in the way I show up, speak truth without seeking confirmation, mother in a way only I can, and trust the timeline without rushing it.
The Intelligence of My Body: Learning to Trust the Inner Rhythm Again
“I don’t want to force anything anymore. Not content. Not movement. Not connection. I want to live from my essence and let everything come from there.”
The Intelligence of Stillness, Movement, and Inner Attunement
As I moved, I could feel my feminine energy emerging soft, inward, exploratory. She wanted to move slow. She wanted to dance. To stretch. To swirl. And then I noticed something subtle, my masculine energy trying to rein her in.
Learning to Receive Without Shrinking
Leadership isn’t about performance. It’s about presence. This journal traces the subtle unravelings of old patterns around shrinking, speaking, and receiving with grace.
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