What Happens When the Body Says No (Even to the ‘Good’ Stuff)
I entered my practice today feeling the urge to record to capture my embodiment in movement, to share it, perhaps to ignite momentum in my creations. But I skipped the most sacred step: I didn’t first attune to myself.
I dropped in for only a moment before beginning. The recording was already rolling, the music already playing. My mind was leading: “Let’s do this, let’s move the energy, let’s create.”
But the body… the body had a different rhythm.
As I moved, my head began to spin. Faster, faster, circles within circles until I lost my balance and collapsed softly to the ground. Nausea rose. I felt my stomach heavy with the meal from hours earlier. My solar plexus tightened. My vessel was speaking:
✨ “Slow down. This is not it.”
In that moment, I received a powerful remembrance:
Even the highest frequencies can dysregulate the nervous system if forced.
My body is not here to perform for my mind’s timeline.
Practices are not about achievement, productivity, or proving devotion. They are invitations to be with what is alive.
The Shower Ceremony: Reconciliation with My Vessel
I entered the shower, water pouring down like liquid light. I began to pray:
“Body, I am sorry. Forgive me for the times I moved energy forcefully through you. Even during my awakening, I did not know how much I was blasting you beyond your capacity. I thought I was helping, purifying, doing good… but I see now how ungrounded that was.”
I placed my hands on my heart and womb. I declared:
I am the I AM Presence within this vessel.
I will not come in unannounced. I will ask before moving.
I will no longer shame myself for my past. All was a self-initiation, all was sacred.
The Core Teaching Emerged
The Feedback Loop of the Temple
My body is not resisting me.
It is communicating with me.
Showing me how to move in harmony with life force.
The Power of Embodied Declaration
Earlier at the gym, I realized:
“Every part of my body is capable of carrying its own weight and role. No part needs to overcompensate for another.”
This is not just biomechanics.
This is living energetic architecture – where my entire field functions in sovereignty and unison.
Remembrance for the Library
Embodiment is not performance.
Your body is your teacher, not your tool.
True spiritual practice is rooted in humility, reverence, and slowness.
Tonight, I chose rest. I let go of cleaning, of work, of striving. Because:
There is no purpose in this world that asks me to abandon my body to achieve it.
This is the teaching I carry forward.
Living Code:
“My body is not my instrument. It is my temple. In listening, I become life itself.”
